Songs and lyrics that inspired my super angsty Phlint soulmate AU, which is a sort of sequel to “On Soulmate Theory”. I can’t give context, as that would be spoiler-y, so songs and lyrics with no context! Lines in bold are particularly inspirational for this fic. But it’s mostly the vibe that counts!
I wake up in the morning And I raise my weary head I got an old coat for a pillow And the earth was last night’s bed I don’t know where I’m going Only God knows where I’ve been I’m a devil on the run A six gun lover A candle in the wind
I told you I was hurt Bleeding on the inside I told you I was lost In the middle of my life There’s times I stayed alive for you There’s times I would have died for you There’s times it didn’t matter at all
Wrecking Ball by Miley Cyrus, but I’m going to link the recent Dolly Parton/Miley Cyrus version because it is *chef’s kiss*
Don’t you ever say I just walked away I will always want you I can’t live a lie, running for my life I will always want you I came in like a wrecking ball I never hit so hard in love All I wanted was to break your walls All you ever did was wreck me Yeah, you, you wreck me
And I’ll be your cryin’ shoulder I’ll be love’s suicide And I’ll be better when I’m older I’ll be the greatest fan of your life
Fall For You by Secondhand Serenade, and this is probably what I’ll use to title the fic and the song I listen to most on repeat while thinking about this fic.
This is not what I intended I always swore to you I’d never fall apart You always thought that I was stronger I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start Oh, but hold your breath Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you, over again Don’t make me change my mind
Don’t Want to Miss A Thing by Aerosmith. To leave you on the more hopeful note that this does in fact end happy, despite everything.
Lying close to you, feeling your heart beating And I’m wondering what you’re dreaming Wondering if it’s me you’re seeing Then I kiss your eyes And thank God we’re together And I just wanna stay with you in this moment forever Forever and ever
There are waaaaaaaay more songs in this playlist, but these are some of the core emotional beats if you will.
Finished the Outline. It’s 15 Chapters NOT including the Prologue and Epilogue, so basically 17 chapters, and the outline itself is 11k words long.
I shouldn’t be surprised I guess? The first time I tried to write this fic I made it halfway through and got to 70k words, so…its going to be long. I hope I can cannibalize quite a few of those 70k words but I have to change a lot of background motivations, so it actually will affect a lot.
Am I biting off more than I can chew for my come-back to writing? Probably. But when I say this fic has been living in my head rent free i mean it was been plaguing me for almost a decade. I need to get it out!
I’ve been thinking a lot about how Steve and Bucky have so many parallels.
The Helmet and The Muzzle. One left arm used for Defence, the other left arm a Weapon. A man in uniform standing up for the other in civilian clothes. One wanting to go to war, the other being drafted into war. One notebook about what he should enjoy about the world he woke up in. The other about the wrongs he thinks he should make up for in the world he woke up in… Falling from a train, falling from a helicarrier.
It goes on and on and it makes me hurt (good and bad) every time I think about it.
Anyway, enjoy the artwork. I’m not great at shading (still learning how to use free ibis paint) so I thought I’d upload the linework if any of you want to have a colouring page 😅 please link me if you do 🖤
Also side note if you got this far, please link your fav Ao3 stucky fics below. I need some new ones to read.
Baby Money Avengers. (Click the first to embiggen)
Sometimes when it’s really late, and Starkexpos is drunk, we enable eachother and come up with really, really, really stupid stuff. And then I blow off working for a day in order to draw it all.
LET’S FACE IT THIS IS NOT THE WORST THING YOU HAVE CAUGHT ME DRAWING.
